Why I’m on Couchsurfing

My boyfriend broke up with me 3 days ago and we had plans to move to Grand Junction Colorado and he moved me from a hotel room in my home City, St.Louis MO, where I have been couch surfing since 2014, and he broke my heart and threw me out on the KC streets after moving me to KC with loads of promised financial security, housing, and him by my side. Trusting him was my mistake, which I take full responsibility for everything that's happened in my life, even this bad situation I'm currently in, but I just have always wanted to trust someone so badly and I place trust in people that seem good, but I have almost always regretted it. It's my fault I am homeless I am aware and even tho people have effected my homelessness I still could have a different life, but if I want the life I really deserve I'd have to face all my issues and conquer them and I try, but it's been a slow process for me and So that's why I've been where my life is at for so long. It sucks, but that's my life. I have somewhere to stay for a night in KC to stay for a couple nights, but I must move on cuz I can't stay here. I just have nothing to move on to cuz idk anyone in KC MO and I don't have many friends. I'm done with this lifestyle. So I'm looking to move in somewhere asap, and where I can have my own room and for at least a year. I'll take a couch or share a room with another, but I like to have a space I can call my own. QI have rent money available on the 1st or 3rd of every month, but can't go over $200-$250 at the most monthly cuz I only recieve a certain guarenteed amount every month. Please, if uour heart is telling you to help please do. I'm desperate and at loss of what next step to take. You won't ever regret meetingme. I'm a pretty neat person to get to know. A little quirky, totally fabulous, and an all around nice and caring guy. I hope we can be friends and if that is what you want I value friendship as every person should in society. Hope to meet soon. Wanna grab lunch, supper, tea, or a coffee soon? Hit me up and let's get this ball rolling. Thank you for reading!! *Smooches*

One Amazing Thing I’ve Done

In this present time, I ended up still a positive and overall good person even tho. I have been in some really terrible times that should have desyroyed me, been treated terribly by society and I really shouldn't be as nice as I am cuz of the bull shit I have endured by the hands of people, and I have met the most terrible people that were once my bestest and closest friends, and have stabbed me in the back and heart repeatedly, but that doesn't mean I am going to stoop down to their level of flawed marality and give up my good morals and be a terrible person too. What good would that do me? It has destroyed me, and the ways people have treated me makes me feel just absolutely depressed, alone, regretful, anxious, angry, abused, used, and downright hurt. Why the hell would I ever put another person through those terroble feelings? I wouldn't ever wish mu life upon another person. I try to always treat others the way I want to be treated. cuz I have experienced so many negative, life effecting and traumatizing awful homeless memories and times... Well... it has actually taught me a whole lot about life, people and who I am capable of being. I sure did have to grow up at a younger age than most, but that was preparation for my future expected homelessness. My super duper Southern Baptist family threw me out when I came out as gay. Completely shunned from the whole family, abandonded at 21, lost as of what to do or where to go, not street smart at all, alone, and left like a dead worthless rat in a sewer or trash in a dumpster. I was so afraid, but I knew I was hoing yo make it cuz I'm a bad bitch and I'll show myself, all I had, that I can still make it in life. It's just hard sometimes and even tho I've been homeless since? I'm still a bad bitch and I will NEVER give up trying cuz I am woth it and I know that with a confident heart. I am proud of the man I am today and I have my homelessness to thank for who I am as a person even tho it fucking sucks like all the time. No joke. I am not your typical homeless person. I can say I am indeed different than the stereotypical homeless person and even person in general. I'm an everyday trying good person. I try to do what's right and I steer away from doing what's wrong. Cuz that's the right thing to do whether we like it or not. My morals are in the right place and I revolve my life around them. And being of the tiny handful of good people there are unfortunetely in this corrupt world I can promise you I will always try and try again till the day I die I promise you. Humans fuck up, so I'm not perfect, but I will always try my very damn best and that you will see as we get to know one another.
I know that is an effective attitude I believe should remain in me. So it will. And having this attitude (everything I just said) and living the way I do is the most amazing thing I've ever seen anyone do or done in my whole life and ya know what? I'm sticking to it damnit even if I keep getting fucked over at least I remain in goodness and I plan to continue to do just that. Period.