I am foolish, 20 march 22 at 5.55am, i meditated on this for 2 hours, i concluded - I am. words spoken- you are foolish, but the feeling i felt -was, i love you ! what are you doing for the world ??? how have we/you been useful to the people around us. spoke to my uncle recently in 2018 ( now passed away ) , after I asked him the question has he been useful in his life . he said his life has been a waste, he was humble and maybe wise enough to say , this was my uncle/dad who was immobile and in his 80's. it made me think, have I been useful ! into meditation, yoga and reading, and yes my daughter of 22- switches off when i start speaking about these subjects . 84 months ago i got rid of my car, as did not want to be sitting in a metal box any longer. i now try to cycle everywhere.. i am a eco-friendly estate agent. ha ha last 10 years been sleeping on the floor or living room floor- ideally ground level , with a few duvets in between me and the floor - i see bed mattress as a kinda artificial structure , stopping the vibration from planet earth reaching you.. all the things/ people think they need. ( i also believe the bed structure is making people ill ) sleep in the garden when weather ok. and yes i like the outdoors. I have 1 beautiful daughter that lives in Reading . ( i have to tone down my behaviour in her presence and act more like a adult ) house i try is meat and drink free. prefer a plant based diet. like open spaces and trees. like to be eco friendly, and walk, train or bus where can. why pollute the environment when not needed. why is a lot of life like a business exchange, what I can take or what you can give !! it is nice to give without wanting or needing anything in return . Love and beauty have we all forgot these 2 words .... xmas is a time where people make the effort to be happy. i find it easier to be depressed. ( i dress up as bee sometimes , which i find good therapy to my mind ) the children and grandparents love it, all the people in between think i am a bit strange !!