CURRENT MISSION

To finish my studies and get to know myself better through the world around me.

ABOUT ME

I am a PhD student interested in molecular biology of psychiatric disorders. I can extract DNA from your hair, chewing gums and cigarette butts you left behind, bottles and cups you drank from, buccal swabs, blood, nails, saliva, sanitary napkins, etc. So, no psychos, please! :-)

I am proud to be a positive person. Being positive does not mean my head is buried in the sand. I know exactly what is going on in the world. I feel the negative energy created by blame, apathy, hate, fear, greed, violence, cruelty, control, abuse of power, and more. That does not discourage me. That only makes me more determined to be a loud and proud representative of peace instead of conflict, cooperation instead of division, responsibility instead of irresponsibility, and empathy instead of cruelty. I was not always the person I am today. For many years I lived under the constant stress of reliving unpleasant memories of the past that could not be changed or fearing an unknown future. I grew so tired of living in fear and feeling out of sync with life. One day I intentionally stopped, took a deep breath, and became determined to teach myself to remain present.
Over time I did master a mind with a mind of its own by keeping my attention completely focused on NOW. That took accepting there is no way possible to change the past and no way possible to know the future. The only thing I could do was let the past go and live fully in the present; which is the only time I have power to take the actions necessary to create the future I want, moment by moment, day by day.

I am still looking for my soulmate. What I know is it will happen only after I have stopped focusing on finding someone and concentrated completely on being someone worth finding. This reminds me of one of my favourite quotes:
''I always feel like a freak because I’m never able to move on... People just have an affair or even entire relationships. They break up and they forget. They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals. I feel I was never able to forget anyone I’ve been with because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me. I never fully recover. That’s why I’m very careful with getting involved, because it hurts too much! Even getting laid… I actually don’t do that… I will miss of the person the most mundane things. Like I’m obsessed with little things. Maybe I’m crazy, but when I was a little boy, my mom told me that I was always late for school. One day she followed me to see why. I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees rolling on the sidewalk or ants crossing the road, the way a leaf cast a shadow on a tree trunk. Little things. I think it’s the same with people. I see in them little details, so specific to each of them, that move me, and that I miss, and will always miss. You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details. I’m really crazy, right?''

PHILOSOPHY

Seldom have I been at peace. I have yet to find a place to drop my anchor. Many times I have tried, but some storm always blows up & hurls me back out to sea... I want to discover new doors, meet open-minded and sensitive people, try new flavours, new dances, new feelings, new views, new rooms, new bars, new smells, new smiles, new cities, mountains, seas(...) and enjoy what I can enjoy today with my own self or/and with other people... I know there's a whole new world out there waiting for me to explore it and eat it up...

Interests

Life, Nature, Music, Biology, Books

• books
• music
• biology
• mountains