CURRENT MISSION

Changing. Accepting. Getting things done. Following my direction and never forget about it.

ABOUT ME

"Any effectively generated theory capable of expressing elementary arithmetic cannot be both consistent and complete. In particular, for any consistent, effectively generated formal theory that proves certain basic arithmetic truths, there is an arithmetical statement that is true, but not provable in the theory." - Gödel's first incompleteness Theorem
I infer, that it is senseless to make statements about myself as a whole.
Although as of every person, my personality has many many facettes, I will try to express something which makes me out. Some of theese facettes I find very beautiful, they emerge when I am relaxed, when I feel happy. For this I need to feel safe about myself (and that I am on the right path) and connected to the world around me. Then I can be full of love for other human beeings and also realize what I need myself. Then I enyoy to be creative, to be open and compassionate to other people and can do things because I see the meaning in them. I know that things function better if I'm keeping to be vulnerable and open. In some moments I really feel so inspired that I believe that I penetrate the essence of live with my thoughts (unfortunately more seldom with what I do).
There are other parts of me, too: I use to be thinking, not feeling and to be cramped when I fear violation. I'm often very fearful and reluctant in social situations unless I push myself. I have the habit to take responsibility for other peoples feelings and tend to feel guilty or ashamed about myself in times. I have learned these patterns during my lifetime and try to free myself from them. I not always accept myself as I am. Sometimes I feel depresssed, fear or hate everything, sometimes I feel like I could embrace the whole world. Thats live, I suppose. I am trying out many things at the moment, sometimes I know what I want sometimes not. I'm searching although I cannot enyoy it always and it is sometimes really frustrating. But most the time I like to make new experiences and I develop with them. I'm changing and developing very rapidly so to say. I'm unsure what it could mean to you to read this. I tell you everything because that I want to be honest and think that I'm at least all ok.
I tend to feel safe and comfortable when I know that I have functional, loving, stable (not necesary static), deep relationships in my life. I try, not to make myself too dependend on anything although I have an disposition for this. I can be intellectual to the bone but trying to be more intuitive also. I love beeing creative! Values which are most important to me are freedom, friendship, authenticity, sincereness, simplicity, creativity, non-violence, sustainability, compassion ... and yes fun, too. :-)

PHILOSOPHY

I know. I don't know what I know exactly and how to describe it, but I already know. My Philosophy is strongly dependent on the situation and on my current mood. ;-)

Taking into account all the strange syncronicities, I suspect that live is a dream.

In good mood: I think that the nature of live is evident to everyone as some magic, mysterious secret which can not be understood or completly percieved by a human mind but only performed. All beings are in a steadfast connection with live. The more you realize this connection, so that you will find ways to perform it, the more meaning you decide to give your live. But the other way around is perhaps even more true: If you are somehow only in this moment and thus in pure accord with all which makes you out -even if you did not need any lesson of any kind to put this into practice- and when there is just no shadow of a doubt, when you are the solution of this mystery even if its only for a moment. Maybe one is once able to fully embrace all good and bad thinhgs in live.

Why I’m on Couchsurfing

HOW I PARTICIPATE IN COUCHSURFING

I strife towards contributing in helping you, guests, to enjoy an enjoyable visit. (In this regard, I'm still awiting good opportunities...)
Besids that, I enyoy my time with other members of CS thus weaving my fibres into the more and more compacting network of this comunity. I'm telling people about the merits of Couch-Surfing and bringing people together when I have the intuition to do so.
I'm also a member of the Hospitality Club network.

COUCHSURFING EXPERIENCE

I have been a guest to one Couchsurfer in Stockholm on a trip in March 2009. I met so many friendly people on this trip so I decided to become a member of CS myself.
Since then, I have been at some Couch Surfing Meetings and hosted many lovely people at my home in Meißen.

Interests

Physics (Theoretical Physics of course), Intuition, Art (intuitive Painting, Drawing), Philosophy and Wisdom, Inner Growth, self-reflection, literature, Nature, winter swimming, the Colours of Light, tempests, my Garden, hiking, Traveling yet not much experienced, discussing, Fiends, beeing close to people, unconvenient ways of comunication, laughing, improving myself, exploring new things, thoughts, emotions, unusual perceptions, things which do not fit into the categories of true and false or wrong and right, insane things, parasciences, the nature of life, beeing barefoot, cooking, sports (Aikido, Iaido, learning unicycling), meditation(Zen), the time when I feel like clear water, questions, - LOVE - , starting to do Improvisation Theatre and Contact Impro, helping people, Chaos, Order (making lists), beeing spontaneous, beeing lazy, dreams, Community Building (by Scott Peck), talking to random people trying to feel the connection, Freedom ...

• arts
• books
• literature
• performing arts
• beauty
• perfumes
• cooking
• baking
• meditation
• clubbing
• gardening
• shopping
• traveling
• painting
• drawing
• magic
• hiking
• surfing
• sports
• swimming
• physics
• visual arts

Music, Movies, and Books

Film: especially Movies from David Lnych, Quentin Tarantino, Stanley Kubrick, documentaries expanding my world view...

Music: Classical, Jazz, Rock, Metal, Latino ... depends

Books:
* from Philosophers, esp. Wittgenstein, Feyerabend
* The Manifests of Surrealism
* literature: Kafka, Hesse, D.Adams, ....
* books about inner developement, spirituality and New ways of acting and percieving the world. I can recomend
- Marshall Rosenberg: Nonviolent Communication: A Language of Compassion.
- Michele Cassou: Point Zero. Creativity Without Limits.
- D. Easton, J.W. Hardy: The Ethical Slut.
- Clark Strand: Einfach meditieren.
- Breton: The Manifests of Surrealism
- Wittgenstein: Tractatus + philosophical investigations
- D.R. Hofstadter: Gödel, Escher, Bach: Ein Endloses Geflochtenes Band
- Ken Wilber
- ...
I think of a book as an encoded piece of software, which containes not only poetry, practcal and theoretical knowledege but also a way of thinking - one reason why I collect books even if I'm not able to read them all.

One Amazing Thing I’ve Done

When I write this, I have just had a huge floating, cury wurly, colourful, striking, theatric, sounding, touching, self organized creativity adventure with a couple of friends this evening. This was no doubt amazing!

In some moments I can cry about the beauty of live and about the meaning of now.
Sometimes I stumbele upon an unconspicious pebblestone, streak the leaves of a tree, colour the soul of an human beeing or just turn around the corner next to the barbers shop. Then I notice that I am this stone, leaf, soul or corner. It feels the world.

Teach, Learn, Share

Some things which I can teach:
- determining the eigenvalues of Hamiltonians
- solving partial diferential equations
- baking bread
- some improvisation theatre and visual arts games
- some basic meditation
- basic techniques of NVC
- programming
- alternative means of communication
- my and my friends views of the world
- diminution of personal productivity ... and increase of live quality

I would like to share deep thoughts, shallow thoughts,
complex thouhts, obvious thoughts, funny thoughts and if that is not enough we could also barter books, seeds and so on ... I'm always trying to focus on and to improve in sharing as much as I can.

Things, I would like to learn more about:
- drawing and painting techniques
- playing instruments (dont play any intruments yet :-( )
- cildrens games, group games, creativity games, communication experiments, meditation techniques
- myself
- psycologic practices (NLP, for example)
- individual ways of living
- new developements in the sciences
- permaculture (I would like to participate in a project for some time)
- I'd like to learn Reiki.
...

Countries I’ve Visited

Austria, Czech Republic, Denmark, Finland, Poland, Slovakia, Sweden, Switzerland

Countries I’ve Lived In

Germany

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