CURRENT MISSION

What´s after Truth ?..

ABOUT ME

I´m Gary Jules in Mad World.. Thankful for the freedom of my tears..though:
A
is for Albert, the name my genitor gave me after her childhood´s favorite.."biscuits" and.. she loves to have her cake and eat it.. however
"..What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.."( W. Sheakspear), "A rose is a rose is a rose" (G.Stein)..Ironically,oddly enough, my mum´s name was Ruzica..for those who know what it means.. but it exists also a rose..that seems dead, yet it is immortal, its roots don't hold any ground but sleeping away it flyes, blown by the wind, opening up when finding a simple pond of water and revealing a bright emerald star-shaped heart.. perhaps, it is the way it learned to survive in the Desert.. perhaps, I´m nothing but that: a rose von Jericho.. http://www.thedoorpost.com/hope/film/?film=4dd298f102c77b625cf37a9e7744ac68

simply get in touch, I´m cool..
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Nevermind too much what n´how I write in this page, it´s all work in progress,(and fun), so far. Most important could be, perhaps, what´s unwritten, or that which u could find behind ´n between words and lines..
I could tell u all and more about my form.
But Form is Surface, and even though too many identify with it, it´s nothing but that stuff anyone made up in its own way to define one´s own undefinable essence. (And can be discuss "how" and "if" we are autonomous and aware in doing it..)
But if u want, actually, "to know" about me, that´s something concerning with the "Intimus"..and that´s where Language, mine as well as that of who is listening, (or reading), FAILS!!
For instance, something u´ld never think from my appearence, because mostly covered by a burning entusiasm is that I´m VERY-SHY, and melanconic, even to the extent of pain, but then I cannot be serious: I´m trying to be true! And I´m not in to taking arbitrary positions,(at least not for too long), they are easy, but I´ve a brain and too much of an addiction, and pleasure, for the use of it. However I could still try, playfully, to say "all about me", in one word..:
TAO

PHILOSOPHY

"I Shin Den Shin" However, of course, if u are not happy with that, let´s have some of the common fun.. :o) "T'chan (Zen) is good enough; but only IF,(when),the power of love would take over the love for power, we could, then, "just" start to hope to face ourselves and get in touch with who we really are and can be.. Phylosophy is an exploitation of words and words are sounds, they should be use to make music, a language ways much closer to truth..
Sometime, besides Plato, I used to think that
"..when the mind´s eye rests on objects illuminated by truth and reality, it understands and comprehends them, and functions intelligently."
But: Appearance can be deceptive.. and language is appearance.. reality is man-made but what is "truth"? What is "beauty", where and what is the mind and ultimately, what´s an "object"?!
Intelligence it´s only a tool, a vehicle, and there are many. It is neither a content nor an essence nor a value; neither, I think, it should be a means in itself.
But then again, there is nothing to stop it to be any or all of that! And maybe there´s no reason to, either.
Unless by saying "intelligence", we´re talking about the "source-within" Everything..
Languages and concepts of any kind are only elaborated toys, and we are noting but "wide" children..
Philosophy is a Joke.Therefore,to respond to the issue I should say:
"Are u joking!? Thanks, but I prefer life!"
But then life is illusion!
Nevertheless, the greater illusion is this very simple thruth itself. Or isn´t it..
As a matter of fact, I recon there is a missing word wich should define the Reality where our reality/realities are floating in.. and, most probably, there is a reason for that, wich could be that we cannot comprehend what is comprehendig us, as this would, possibly, make our reality, (wich, at the end of the day, is just what we "see"), stop to exist..and that could even happen to be.. not a wrong thing
..so..
as we say in Rome, where I grew up:
"the more u stir the shit, the more it stinks!"
Enjoy the silence, now, as silence, as well as emptiness, is Space and that´s what we really need, and darkness can be sweet as well, as too much light can blind us..
ultimately, we are not what we see..

Why I’m on Couchsurfing

HOW I PARTICIPATE IN COUCHSURFING

JUST ASK,
if I can, when I can and sometimes even if I couldn´t, who can really say..
I became some kind of cs-prophet, as it didn´t change my life, but simply it gave a website, a name and a boost to my normal lifestyle, attitude and behaviuor.

COUCHSURFING EXPERIENCE

My normal life, just more specifically defined.
What can I say,..All my Love..At times looks more like the family I would have choose.
I´m bringing in quite some beautiful people myself and that, I´m very proud of!
I promise I´ll try to keep a record, but is already hard.. just have to get some more skills about this "PC-toy", and get organized.. ehmm.. what´s that? orgeznd.. ordzenig.. well, u know.. :o)

Interests

Defy Mistification & FREE the World from Fear & Misconception of Power.
"The head only takes up 1/8 of the entire body proper. Anyone that uses only his head to think with is 7/8s paralyzed."
(A MartialArt Master)
"Mass and energy are both but different manifestations of the same thing.."
(A. Einstein)
°Art, in any conceivable way but even more in the unconceivable ones.
But LOVE FIRST..and gentleness, same as above.
°My Reasearch, wich aims to eliminate "objects" as a means but maintains and improves their concept as pleaseble, enhancing companions.
°Understanding.
°To be useful without creating dependence but freedom,
relate and became a better person, with not rudeness nor hypocrisy. *_*To be in the Nature and to be swollowed by IT.*_*And..guess: TRAVELLING! Or should I say "journeying".
I truly feel home only on the move..
I guess I´m a "wild gardener", so to speak.
Moreover,.. I do have a deep passion for shadows..
and when the nightwind happens to be the only sound in the world and everyone is resting from the wearing daily reciting, is not unusual to find me digging painstakingly in to deception..

• arts
• books
• beauty
• perfumes
• dancing
• walking
• flowers
• reading
• traveling
• magic
• music
• languages
• lakes

Music, Movies, and Books

Images and impressions of my everyday journey through existence are my favorite visions and poetry, but the sounds of that..rythm, melody and harmony are everywhere, in and within everything..
Yet I do indulge, besides, in some ARTificial fun..here just some random scraps,
HAVE FUN:..and THEATRE ?SLAVA PULONIN! Victoria Chaplin, Michel Courtemanche, Odin Theatret, Carmelo Bene, Jerzy Grotowskj, Etienne Decroix, the Butoh, Tadeusz Kantor, the czech Black Theatre (LANTERNAMAGICA, IMAGE THEATRE, but even more the underground), Cirkus Cirkör, Momix, and here I can really go on and on..instead, I finish with "six degrees of separation", a wonderful/meaningful Broadway´s play that I never saw in a theatre, but thanks to Fred Schepisi, who made it in to a great movie of wich some critic sayd "for those who don´t like cinema".. no words were more wrong..
Moving Image and Directors:WIM WENDERS! LARS VON TRIER and Dogma, Roy Anderssons, besides the new school, with exponents like Paolo Sorrentino ("The Conseguences of Love" with its AMAZING Soundtrack, is a school of life: "All in Nature, has a lyrical essence, a tragic destiny, a comical existence.")and Sofia Coppola as much intensely powerful and crystal-clear, Todd Solondz(YEAH!),Paul Thomas Anderson (Magnolia, another masterpiece), then on with Godfrey Reggio´s "Qatsi-Trilogy", W.Herzog, Emir Kusturica, Taviani bros, R.Rossellini, L. Comencini, E. Scola, G.Tornatore, B.Bertolucci, P.Greenaway, D.Cronenberg, Ken Russel, D.Lynch, S. Kubrick, Ridley Scott, Cohen Bros, Jane Campion, Jim Sheridan, J.Jarmush, A.Kurosawa, I.Bergman, Jean-Luc Godard, and so on. Pretty much in to Classics, "Cinéma d´Art et d´Essai", including B&W and Silent Movies, the intensity of the charming Louise Brooks and the unquiet Theda Bara. To name simply some extremes: F.W.Murnau and Fritz Lang as well as Chaplin and Buster Keaton, the 20´s german Expressionism as well as Laurel & Hardy and my mostly adorables Marx Bros (even they´re later, I´ve to mension them, Harpo is my heart), and as for them, I´m gonna repeat myself in the music section, but I simply adore Danny Kaye in every way, and so Jerry Lewis. The higly expressive A. Hitchcock for the technical beauty in itself, and Kirk Douglas, a genious (by the way: he´s the man behind "someone flew over the Cuckoo´s nest"!) I love the Watchowsky bros (the Matrix Trilogy is my Bible), and Tim Burton (Oh, Edward..) and Terry Gilliam (genial). I adore the epic Jet Lee, and don´t dislike Q.Tarantino,(and I´m NOT associating them!).
Monty Phyton are Top! And hehe.. Mel Brooks. I quite identify with Jim Carrey, then B-movies: they´re lot of fun! ANIMATION, Mamoru Oshii, Hayao Miyazaki, and particularly the Czechs (to name 1: Jan Svankmajer); Cartoons and puppets, Bull and Winkle, Southpark, Simpsons, CLARENCE (pure genius), the Muppetts (yeee...), some of the "NewGrounds" stuff. ..and please don´t call me a "morbid bastard", (wich I can be, somehow, but not without reasons..) but I simply worship David Firth! (by the way he makes a superior choise of sound and music).
Derek Jarman, John Boorman, Matthieu Kassovitz, Marcel Carne´, A. Tarkovskj, Krzystzof Kieslowsky, Leos Carax, Alain Corneáu, Jean-Jaques Beineix, Jean-Jacques Annaud,C.Nuridsany/M.Pérennou´s work is masterpiece, also j´adore J.P.Jeunet & M.Caro (it´s a pity that most of what I know is french, but it´s just that they go 4 it!). The "Flyng on the Wall" and the "Film Verite´" movements among docs, MICHAEL MOORE (thanks whoever, exists..), and others, plus addictive-scavenging Utube and the Web as well as Art galleries 4whatever, from guys like Dominic Hailstone and the awesome musicians he collaborates with, to friends&family´s footages and VideoArt, at times fascinatingly undistinguishable. And Zhang Yimou, Ang Lee, Chang-Wook Park, Ji Loan Do, and I want to know Mongolian cinema! I appreciate and respect Indie & low-budget prods.(IMPOSSIBLE TO LIST!) from All-Over-The- World! Eastern are raw and moving, Finnish are amazing visions, and...
Splatters and Sci-Fi, Alien & Star Trek, Star Wars & Nigthmare, Hellraiser, SAM RAIMI, the 80´s Fantasy,(I feeded on those as a kid), Conan, Greystoke, TRON (ununderstood!), Star Trek, as well as nowadays: The Grudge, The Ring, The Eye, The Others,The x-Files, The etc. ... Oh my gosh! I could go forever, as 4 me defining is researching.. but I guess u got the picture, I´m an omnivorous, voracious nerd with a classical taste and a dark-red-blood leather jacket, and I´m a dumpster, shadows diver while I keep in my pocket a Dragon-shaped kyte that draw me away in untouched landscapes when..ever.A bit of a maniac "Enrico Ghezzi"-style. (Now, That, is worry..). And I´m gonna stop now,`cause that was just a superficial random trip in my memory and is already driving me crazy! I´ll be back, 4our pleasure & despair..Now.. MUSIC:Classical, of course. Thought right now I'm madly in love for Emilie Autumn :x (if u look, sing or play, perform, write even less than half like her, please marry me). I consider the Baroque, such as, for instance, Mnsr de Saint Colombe, the ultimate expression of music itself, for which it settled itself free for exploration. Sacrae and Antiqua as well as contemporary and Art Music, Musique Concréte, Isolationism, and all those electronic geek stuff. My true spirit sounds like:
Johann Johannsson and Max Richter, Arvo Pärt, Thomas De Hartmann/Gurdjieff then speaks like "Mr E" M.O. Everett (Eels), all the way to Nick Drake, opening to K. Stockhausen, I. Xenakis, Alva Noto(Carsten Nicolai), Scanner(Robin Rimbaud), Kim Cascone, Akufen, Fennesz, Ryuichi Sakamoto, Thomas Köner, Francisco Lopez, Urkuma, (mostly including great film/video works).. and I dream of Reykjavik.. El Fado and Yeong Wook Jo touch, reflect and enrich my soul, Bossa Nova is the sweetest caresse, "but I Just can´t help falling in love" if u put on some comedy music: I adore Danny Kaye, the Marx Bros, of course, and Irving Berlin. Also Blues classics R.Johnson, J.L.Hooker.. but again, that´s another whole world! A side of my being belongs to Electronic Festivals, ICA (London), Sónar.es, The Wire(Magz.)..; Minimalisms: Steve Reich, Philip Glass, Wim Mertens, Michael Nyman, Ludovico Einaudi.. and how could I ignore movie soundtrack´s composers: N.Piovani, N.Rota, E.Morricone, Danny Elfman (I get shivers..), Yann Thiersen, John Williams, Don Davis, fabulous Pasquale Catalano..soo many.. while I get HIGH and MOOOVE on IDM/Braindance: APHEX TWIN is GOD! Plastikman, Ricardo Villalobos, T./E.Brinkmann, Pan Sonic, Matthew Herbert, MATMOS, Sphongle, Autechre, Mouse on Mars, Apparat, Soft Pink Truth, Ellen Allien, ISAN, Populous.. (Jsss..the all BUNCH!I´ll never have enough space..), and ELECTRO, best if EBM, Hard/Punk, but also Funk, arty, funny ´n sexy toy-things: Noxious Nub, Pzychobitch, UnterArt, UFO (Germany), Polyscs, Tigerpicks, Chicks on Speed..(oh Alex,..marry me..:)).
Some more random pleasure: Sigur Ros, Maximilian Hacker, The Notwist, Lali Puna, Cocorosie, Ane Brun, Said the Shark, Corinne Bailey Ray, Amir Beso, Rjba Corba, Laleh(på svenska, I cry when I listen "Snö"), Karen Ann, Stina Nordenstam, Modest Mouse, dEUS, Ditty Boops, Blonde Redhead, Radiohead, My Bloody Valentine, Kent, Muse, Steve Vai, Yngwie Malmsteen, Chemical Brothers, Massive Attack, Portishead, Daisuke Asakura, Underworld, the Rockbitch as a concept, some loud Rock Classics, but give me CrossOver, Industrial and Nu-Metal to clean up and get back to my senses: Korn, A perfect Circle, Linkin Park, Pantera, Rage Against the Machine, S.o.a.D, Trent Reznor and M.Manson too (whoops..). I consider Sopor Aeternus: Art; considerably as such: Tiger Lillies and Vinicio Capossela too. While Trance, Glitch and Micro-Tech can be therapeutic, I enjoy K.Minogue and J.Timberlake (hahaha),and Eminem!(U know, my childhood, a kind of reflexive blend of rage and hirony..).
Some vintage: The Rockets (I´m a fan!), Kraftwerk, Tangerine Dream, Art of Noise, Kate Bush, The Cure, Thompson Twins,.. but also: mylady Billy Holiday, Charlie Parker, Keith Jarrett, and, and..Oh MY GOd...BOOKS:MAPS and WORLD ATLAS!!! Of course B. Chatwin, Tiziano Terzani, and I dream of reading the entire work of Sven Lindqvist.. in swedish (you´re rigth, laugh.. but we´ll see..) Art Books-Catalogues/Magazines, especially on Contemporary Art. Revelations (and more Bible´s poetry), Zohar (The Book of Splendor), Bardo Thodol ( Tibetan Book of the Dead), Tao Te Ching, I Ching, Chuang Tzu, Sun Tzu- the Art of War, 101 Zen stories, and somehow their counterpart D.A.F. de Sade, L. von Sacher Masoch; well, in general most of the sacred texts and fairy tales from all over the world (the best poetry and mankind´s collective memory), Dante Alighieri´s "La Divinae Commedia", Leonardo Da Vinci´s "Trattato della Pittura", and other classics from the the Italian Renaissance; F. Nietzsche, J.W. Goethe, again most of the classics. H. Ibsen, F.M. Dostoevsky, The Romantics: M.Shilley´s Frankentein says so much more than it writes. And E.A. Poe, Dino Buzzati with his entranchig simple drawings and those I consider his "next generation": Tizianio Sclavi, Paola Capriolo; Jean Giono, ´cause the highest poetry is: Semplicity; E.R.Burroughs´s "Tarzan of the apes" was my upbringing togheter with H.C. Andersen (I was 5!! I love him to bits..in a way is all his fault.. and W.Shakespeare´s, at 11), I feed and much relied also on I. Asimov, R. Sheckley, R. Bradbury and A.Rodín´s "L´Art"; my idols: Albert Camus, F. Kafka, M. Ende, Tove M. Jansson; C.G.Jung, though I don´t agree about everything, but is so much fun, still G.Groddeck is much better (another dream of mine would be to realize a theatre-play of his work); genial in their semplicity: James Hillman, Alice Miller (she´s got it, sadly or not..), and I love reading about Neurology (hihi),and Physics: my mindset is pretty much "science-shaped", as my friends I get along with the most. But beware: there is Science, that is moral integrity and objectivity (which includes: DOUBT), and there is the exploitation and misconception of it, that as for Religion, can lead to a criminal, destructive conduct. True Science is about questioning ourselves, not about easy answers, is Concrete Poetry, just have a look at A. Einstein or Fritjof Capra, to name just a pair. A book absolutely worthed to mension, by the way is "The Evil that Man Do", by Brian Master, easy and straight to the point, to "serve" with "Mein Kampf" (A. Hitler) to remember what the Illusion of rigthness and perfection can do.. TONS of poetry,("I Sonetti" of Michelangelo Buonarroti, the "Scapigliati" a minor italian movement of the 19th century, the writings of Enzo Cucchi..) and medieval literature, fairy tales, CHILDREN BOOKS, and...About COMICS?!The Bunny Suicides by A. Riley, pure catharsis, and the Liu Gang´s,(aka You Shou), chinese version: Rabbit Suicide, 4all it envolves; Gary Larson!!
The Crow and The SANDMAN!"(WHAOO!)"..if dreaming to fly means sex, what, then, dreaming of sex means.." Score: people-1 vs Freud-0, hehe :)
From Richard Corben to Masamune Shirow, through Caza (another french genious), Moebius (Jean Giraud´s alter ego), loads of Marvel (and DC)I believe they are a new form of mithology: THE HULK, Jim Starlin (Shang-Chi was an inspiration when I was a a kid!),John Buscema/Ernie Chan, Barry W. Smith, Joe Kubert.. Enki Bilal and all the Metal Hurlant stuff. Then the italians Milo Manara, Palumbo´s "Ramarro", among many..
Gosh..did u really get down here?! Then u´re crazier then me, ´cause I´m giving up... u´re my hero :oD

One Amazing Thing I’ve Done

I should tell my all life.. but a little one was..
Walking through snow-storms and realizing that I could stand only by leaving the main road and get deep in the forest, where we really belong.. travelling at night and resting the day as I was afraid to fall asleep as I would have not wake up.. I saw the world upside-down in the blu-nights of Saamiland when the frozen lakes start to melt and reflect the sun hidden beneath a sky made of snow.. up to two days before that, I was floating in a bright white, "dimensionless" space, where the horizont was absent.. then I arrived few Kms from Norrkap and I choosed to turn back without reaching it, ´cause I wanted to be sure to have a reason to came back.. I headed to Narvik´s "signpost", and I ´ll never forget the expression and the eyes of the girl who served me a coffe too early in the morning, before anyone woke up. But we only smiled, without a word, I left, so I´ll keep this memory forever. Later I cried, overwhelmed by the view of the Lofoten, on a small ferry. Once in Bodö I stood on a rock by the seashore and picked up 2 quartz stones, (the last present I brought to my mother, later), and meet someone who told me was from an island above Norrkap, which was the farest point up North, and invited me there..next time... I went down to Salento, far in the south of Italy, to know my father and my origins, (at least 1 part). Years passed, meanwhile I´ve been through Venice, and the Love I´ll never heal from. Then more years.. Outside a desert station wich still be as the Savoia made it, before the Republic, with olive trees and Lecce-stone made small houses around, I saw a butterfly on the ground of undefinable form and colours, like a yellow-emerald flower and it was dead.. something inside me, somehow, rebeled to that.. I took it up and hold it gently between my hands.. after a while it moved.. then moved stronger ´till flew away.. I stood, surprised, smiling with my nose up in the air.. there was not sound around.. I was heading to "Nord" again...

Teach, Learn, Share

Think with the body, dance with the mind.
All is illusion and the master of all illusions,
is that "such thoughts" would lead to annihilation.
Though, that´s, really, only a rapresentation of a mind defending itself from.. what: freedom?!
Instead your true self can learn that your perceptions, beside/s any other material, can be matter to elaborate a work of art, to such an extent that u can make a masterpiece out of your existence.
"Maschera"(mask) is a word that comes from the Etruriuans, (you know, the civilization in the heart of Italy before the Romans came and fucked everything up. In a way, of course:)) wich means:"personae"(person)and
"When you wear the mask, you cannot lie!"(Dario Fó)
In exchange "4ALLTHAT",
I´ll be happy with a smile of yours.
Love is something to learn and is nothing like
"by the book", it is not for granted nor an easy task,
it is not to gain from, it´s a choice,
it´s dedication, a state of being.

Countries I’ve Visited

Belgium, Bosnia and Herzegovina, Croatia, Czech Republic, Denmark, Estonia, France, Greece, Netherlands, Norway, Slovakia, Spain, Switzerland

Countries I’ve Lived In

Germany, Italy, Sweden, United Kingdom

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