CURRENT MISSION

absent-mindedly wandering through minefields

ABOUT ME

I'm shy, dorky, sort of awkwardly passionate, good at listening, obsessed with writing and comics and various other spur-of-the-moment things, in love with love, rather verbose, messy, not really like anyone I've met and a lot like everyone I've met. Constantly try to figure myself out, and somehow the world comes in the bargain. I'm not sure how that happens.

I have a very strong sense of identity but not a lot of understanding of how it'd look from the outside. I'm a romantic. I love books. I'm obsessed with pretty things but I don't want to bother with myself as an object. I admire intensity and clarity of vision, and I see stories in everything. I don't think anyone really needs to know this, but I like to ramble :P Oh, and I spend too much time online & too little time exploring the world, but this is because of a certain conflict in my personality I've yet to work through. Um, I have lots of those, yeah.

I like kittens.

PHILOSOPHY

Be true to yourself, don't give up, love unconditionally, always try to understand what and who you think you don't, remember your lessons but don't let them create boundaries on the future.

Why I’m on Couchsurfing

HOW I PARTICIPATE IN COUCHSURFING

offering a couch is all I'm good for so far.

COUCHSURFING EXPERIENCE

I think relatives hardly count, right? Well, the only time I've really done it is when we crashed our car in California and had to stay with my boyfriend's cousin in south Cal. Bad karma, man... (and I never say that). There was one couch, and my bf slept on the armchair, I believe.

We were stuck in this little military town (Lompoc) and I was really not in the best of shape. It would've been fun-- the guy was easy enough to get along with-- but I was really a bit freaked out by the situation. A lot of it's probably because I let my bf do most of the interacting, so I never did feel like I was really doing it. I want to really live my life, and that's something I need to be one-on-one for at this point.

Interests

writing, drawing, reading books/comics/toothpaste tubes, people-watching, messing around on the internets, graphic design, architecture and design aesthetics, philosophizing, nature walking, old castles, the supernatural, futurism, the poetry of everything, the ironies of life, magic.

• writing
• books
• poetry
• architecture
• design
• graphic design
• walking
• comics
• reading
• drawing
• magic
• survival
• beaches

Music, Movies, and Books

Movies: The Neverending Story, Waking Life, The Breakfast Club, Sixteen Candles, Star Trek IV, The Princess Bride, Fight Club, etc.

Books: AS Byatt, Diana Wynne Jones, Patricia McKillip, Emma Bull, Peter Beagle, George RR Martin, Banana Yoshimoto; urban fantasy in general, YA in general. Used to read tons of romance and Star Trek novels. HP freak. Um, that's HP for Harry Potter, haha.

Music: anything from the Doves to Pink Floyd to Tori to Sigur Ros to Coldplay, Jethro Tull and David Bowie to Moby, Enya & Maroon 5. Although, truthfully, I really like one song by the last band that much, haha.

Manga/anime obsessed. :P

One Amazing Thing I’ve Done

I went across country to California (the promised land) in a tiny red car filled with stuff with my bf. I enjoyed it a lot more than he did, but it was awesome-- if anything, I realized that 'dude, it's full of -fields-'. A good thing to know. I did a lot of crazy things in that car like sleep in it and crash it going down the freeway. Good times.

Oh, you mean something more grand. There are so many moments that mean a lot, but which of them do I want on my obit? I don't know if my personal experiences can be easily translated into something others would immediately appreciate... or maybe I just have really high standards for 'amazing' and 'once-in-a-lifetime'. Even at its best, my life seems magical in a very personal and limited way. I really loved wandering around Venice after impulsively buying a ticket while in England; I loved being on a beach in Brighton and bonding with the wind and the cold ocean; I loved touching old stones. I think it's pretty amazing that I've been everywhere I've been, no matter where. I think it's pretty amazing I spent a horrible year stuck in the middle of nowhere, Michigan. That's a survival test, right there.

Teach, Learn, Share

I want to learn how to open up to people, how to be more comfortable and at ease with various people, how to... get over my shyness and social anxiety. I want to let go enough to learn from people, because I do find most fascinating in different ways.

As far as sharing, there's lots of esoteric knowledge about fantasy books and comics and writing, but who really wants that? I can't imagine that anything I have to teach would be intentional or quickly transferred :P

Countries I’ve Visited

Austria, Germany, Italy, United Kingdom

Countries I’ve Lived In

United States