CURRENT MISSIONS

Building up a FAMILY from the scratch. As I am the Four. My two sons Jonte and Liko where born last year (2018, and yes, both of them, 11 month apart).

Guiding the best and most needed idea I ever had into a fully fledged SCREENPLAY and bringing it to life by proper fundings. For real. Finally! This year (2019)! (Update 2020: did not do it. Diapers needed all the focus. Fuck procrastinating!)

Doing less activism with EXTINCTON REBELLION so I can focus on my family and my first and maybe only full feature film for theaters.

TANGO ARGENTINO. Dancing and teaching the most touching language spoken worldwide. Can't let go of it, no no ...

Being the BioPapa I imagined for my 15 kids (last update: 2020) and theire beautiful families:

I’m a private sperm donor.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B6PzPbYjWY9kRk1qQWYyTjJuaHM/view?fbclid=IwAR2k8v1YKmAVTlSv6N6sWQceFtDHLLLsUsIHX6BFSSMquUuPGbyk2ww088Y

ABOUT ME

I'm a burning and loving artist at heart. Passionate Tango-addict. Creative mind. Emotional filmmaker. Constantly sensually seduced and always looking out to dig deeper, being touched and laughing out as loud as it gets. Driven by my heart I never know where I might end up.

If you don't mind just read the "interests" below. You'll find some thoughts about myself that will give you an idea about who I am and who I am not yet and who I want to become. Quite a task. Damn. I am quite impatient when it comes to existential tasks. Like becoming a decent human being.

I love speaking out frank and direct. I am emotional and like to weep and laugh to keep my balance. I like spiritual thoughts although I'm not very fond of the vocabulary people use to speak about "energy flows" and alike, wtf. (I detect spiritual by-passers in an instant.) I love to touch and be touched by art and life and people. If they won't, I am not interested. I love to move a lot, and to be moved.

I dislike to learn how to be happy by being single but getting closer to it constantly. And I actually have a clue about myself. I love myself (5/13/2013: firsttime note ;-)

I'm a firm believer in the power of positive energy and attitudes by being my own commander about my thoughts. Helping others and laughing out loud! Happiness fuels success, so I try to play that out in my life and in my profession (that is one of my passions) as much as possible. I have no time for haters, posers, narcissists and selfish people who subconsciously assume the universe is only about them. Life is too short and there are better things to focus on.

MINDSET

L O V E. Poly by nature. Kinky AF (my biggest obsession as a kind of soft trend in BDSM is currently Erocosplay/Kittenplay, and all dress4sex games that one can imagine to make love a glamorous feast!). Live and let live. Sounds obvious, right? But isn't. I have my problems with this, again and again from time to time. But it's what I'm looking forward to learn until the day I die.

What else ... dare! (I have to recall this each day again, and each second day I forget it.)

Some phrases and quotes:
(just to do this profile step by step)

"We are the slaves of a mask hiding our true face. If we free ourselves from this, the beauty of truth will be ours."
(Abbas Kiarostami)

"When you mix truth with false it all becomes false".

"The truth is never battling illusions,
and illusions are never battling the truth, either.
Illusions are simply battling against each other, always."
(A Course in Miracles)

"Matters are not disconcerting in general, but only how we perceive them."
(Epiklet)

"Direct is open is honest."

"Better will regret things I did, than things I´ve never tried ..."

Why I’m on Couchsurfing

HOW I PARTICIPATE IN COUCHSURFING

First time I simply logged in. Just because I got in contact with it by hitchhiking and couchsurfing with www.hospitalityclub.org. (And this is one story about lovesickness I can tell you when you'll be my guest.) Now I'm still trying to find the leisure to improve my profile ...

COUCHSURFING EXPERIENCE

... has just started (2006?). And it's amazing so far. And no end in sight. But well, amongst many there is one CS-experience in particular I liked the most. It's personal by nature. Very.

There might be some confusion or some might even consider it as harassment of their moral opinion when I add this to my profile quite bluntly. But as I wrote before: I love to communicate directly and honest.

If you read attentively you'll spot this little adventure somewhere else on this profile. And hidden within it you'll find a key-sentence in bold letters which you may refer to when requesting me as your host. Just optional and to give me a hint that you are really into true couchsurfing and read my profile for real. But please feel free to just ask for a couch without further ado! I know how hard it sometimes can be.

Interests

Development. But how to? By daring more and more, in general and in particular (e.g. by trying and making movies). But wait, don't I hate it? Developing ... it hurts so much, sometimes, and over and over again I have to conquer my boundaries, my fears. Don't I hate it actually?

I love CINEMA! I am cinephile. I'm damned interested in making experiences I solely can make by sinking deeply into another's life I never could live. What a magic possibility, each time I watch a non-entertaining piece of art! And well, the entertaining ones are great too. As long as theiy are in some way unique and matter.

I like it a lot to PHOTOGRAPH ON EMULSION. Not a pro yet. Not at all. I have the eye, but I'm not the type for the mastery of all the technical aspects. I made a couple of short films as a cameraman and it was a pure joy to focus and merge into something bigger.

If you are interested: there's a folder with some old pics with a normal digital consumer camera, shot at one of my love-pang trips. I like them as a personal memory because they are a testimonial of one of my initialising experiences as I perceived the driving force behind all conscious arts. At least I assume so. (Ask for more background info!)

Those delayed action released pics I did on myself to transcend my self-pity while couchsurfing lonesome and lovesick in Budapest in 2006. I guess it is the force behind every creative expression that struck me there.

"Selbstinszenierte Einsamkeit." Never again, only as a from of art from then on.
https://photos.app.goo.gl/wo4oXdPgBAgZqHum9

I love to make MOVIES. It is my profession and my passion, no doubt. I'm interested in the entire process. It is my way of getting closer and learning about myself and in the same time I use it in order to overcome my self-centeredness. At the Hamburg Media School I studied two years and graduated with a MA in Directing in 2012. If you are interested in the art and craft of making movies I am excited to exchange ideas with you.

One short I made at the European Film College in Denmark already some years ago you can watch here:

Camille
http://vimeo.com/28681935
A teenager daring the unknown and getting in danger.
DK 2009 | Video/DVD | 12'18'' | 16:9| | Colour | Language: EN | Subt: EN, GER

"Camille is 15 and hates her mother. She just humiliated her again in front of everybody. And when she secretly fucks with Uncle Robert - why shouldn't she seduce her cousin Dennis to try out how sex really is? Furious she leaves and takes the bus to the city. A stranger takes her for a hooker. He asks her to go for a ride."

A short and intimate Coming Of Age Road-Night-Story

You can find it on facebook of course:
www.facebook.com/camillethefilm

I love to LOVE. Giving and getting love. Sounds banal. And well, it is not. And both I have to learn lifelong. Sometimes I'm afraid of being not daring enough to love; it's when I detect myself hiding inside safeguarding.

And then there are those circular reappearing defects when I try to get loved by others while cheating on them meanwhile. (Update 2014: those times are over. I learned my lessons. I learned how to be honest, however complicated the situation seems to be. So some of the following lines have become a window to my past self.)

Sometimes I can't love myself enough, and blanc egoism misleads me to offend sensibilities deeply. It only happens maybe each fifth year, but damnit, it still happens time and again. Why can't I just escape this eternal recurrence and be the one who I actually can be? (Update: well, I can.)

"When there is no truth, end the lie." you can read on Aaron Schultzes profile ... (But hey, I'm this type of guy that needs a girlfriend all along. It's just me, I love to be with women, love their tender strengh, love and need their beauty. Each day without being with a girl is some kind of a lost one, can't help it. (That's my honesty, I won't apologize. And as we are close to a topic this website and even some entire societies are not allowing to speak in public about: yes, I also love sex. Oh my gosh!)

I am a craver for BEAUTY! Just pure beauty in front of me and around me (and hopefully as much as possible inside myself) is enough to make me blissful - like e.g. in 2001 in Barcelona. Tear drops run down my cheeks as I stood there in front of Antoni Gaudís Casa Battló. And tear drops are also dripping out of my eyes each time someone is feeling and recalling truth with his words and from his eyes. Wow, that sounds creepy elevated. Scusa. It just means that tears come easily to me when something is honest, I guess. And it says that if laughter and tears are linked together, then there is only one way to laugh very freely: cry freely.

I Love WINDSURFING. 15 years long it was my absolute passion. Unfortunately I do have neither time nor money nor a car to follow the storms at the moment. But the day will come again ...

I like RUNNING. Just started to run in the morning when it's still foggy on the dyke to escape my newborn lovesickness, and guess what happend: I found out that I am still a coherent strong piece of human being and my ability to stand and grow became even bigger. So feel free to ask me for a run. (2011/12/04, did my very first Marathon in 2012.)

I kinda like YOGA and would very much to practice it more oftenly, if I only would have a private drill-sergeant.

ROLLERBLADING is quite flux too. I use them instead of a bike to get from A to B. And SWIMMING is lovely! Oh, and I love to SAUNA! It's the best for relaxing body and mind and for staying healthy and just feeling newborn again. Feel free to sweat with me whenever you feel for it. I'm a total fan of those hard boiled aromatic steam treatments in this hut with 100 degrees ...

I love-hate RECONCILIATION. I guess it's my main topic storytelling wise. The necessity of letting go. Life as lifelong learning process to die in peace.

Watch "Så som i himmelen" ("As It Is in Heaven", 2004, Kay Pollak). I snivel almost 132 min. running time through. And yeah, it's just much harder in real life, but it's what it is all about in the end for me. I love to ...

(... be continued ...)

• arts
• acting
• beauty
• dancing
• tango
• wine
• beer
• coffee
• organic food
• yoga
• marathon
• running
• sauna
• walking
• drinking
• movies
• magic
• music
• cycling
• windsurfing
• swimming
• communications
• hitchhiking
• sex
• films
• cinema
• film photography
• spirituality
• china
• taiwan
• love
• vietnam
• cinematography
• asia
• spicy food
• bdsm
• directing
• watching films
• wisdom
• vietnamese food
• asian food
• truth
• tango argentino
• argentine tango
• asian culture
• watch movies
• cinéphile
• lgbtq
• art direction
• fetish

Music, Movies, and Books

It's quite tiring me to do all those stupid listings in this space here properly. And when it comes to movies, then the list is so long and varied that I would ask to look at facebook. So first of all links to more of my own stuff:

The Philatelist
http://youtu.be/50TvZD9iqRw?hd=1
www.facebook.com/derphilatelist

Cowboys and Indians
http://youtu.be/EXCv-b_fGL4?hd=1
www.facebook.com/cowboyundindianer

Still got lives_
www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4mC-_ufxC0&feature=share&list=PL15D1EEF980B674D3
www.facebook.com/ichhabnochauferstehung

Not a day without MUSIC. Except being in nature to feel the pureness.

Some alltime favourites:
My library and some loved tracks on https://www.last.fm/user/Jan-Gerrit/library ...

One Amazing Thing I’ve Done

The birth of my two sons. Nothing tops this. Not even becoming a BioPapa for 15 (last update: 2020) children living with their lesbian mothers - and keeping contact to all of them. (Google: BioPapa Xyrano or check out https://www.facebook.com/xyranobiopapa)

Being locked-on to a blue bathtub on the Potsdamer Platz at the rebellion wave with Extinction Rebellion in Berlin 2019. (https://www.facebook.com/notes/jan-gerrit-seyler/ganzer-geht-nicht/2529926557063168)

No sightseeing = no boredom. Instead I am telling you here about the most incredible and beautiful one-night stand a guy like me can have (so far ;-). And yes, I know, CS is not supposed to be a dating site, but hey, if this story is "accidentally" connected to it, what shall I do about it? Hide it? Nope, no way. So here we go.

One beautiful day a text message struck me like Amor's arrow while I was rollerblading to fight my sadness. Some days before my girlfriend left me for good and I suffered quite deeply. (Nowadays I know that this wasn't the true reason for my selfpity, but if you are part of the suffering-circle it is hard to see the truth: you are always the only person responsible for your happiness and in general not supposed to seek the responsibility by others or the circumstances, don't you agree?)

But on this very special spring day in the end of April I not only hadn't yet reached the silent center of this taifun of my mind, but also I had forgotten to meet up with my upcoming CS-guest. So there she suddenly popped into my misty mind, sitting in my favorite Sweet Home Café and looking beautiful in her summer-dress.

As it turned out we liked each other instantly while enjoying a smoke and beer in the sun. Soon we talked about love, and it turend out that this topic was equally current to her as to me. She herself had just had a brake-up.

Back home we cooked Spaghetti Alio e Oglio with a lot of hot pepperoncini, and I was a little surprised as she took out a bottle of Absolut Vodka and Redbull cans, casually placing them on the kitchen table. In addition to my wine that I bought on the way to the meeting with her (out of a probably knowing feeling) we now hat plenty of aids to get closer to each other.

We made ourselfs comfortable in my room, had the perfect improvised candle-light dinner and became more and more drunk ... and well, how I managed to cope with my shyness to do the next step I can tell you if you want in detail. But better with two cups of coffee instead of Wodka in our hands.

I think a lot of people here could tell a similar story, but the simple minded moralistic values of the big system we are living in is judging it as not appropriate. But all I can say so far is: this was one of my best nights ever. I love you, www.couchsurfing.com! The only flaw of this almost perfect one-night stand was that it was one.

LOVE IS THE ABSCENSE OF JUDGEMENT.
- Dalai Lama

Teach, Learn, Share

I can't juggle, I don't play the banjo and I can't teach you how to belly dance. But we can have a good time in peace and quiet together, if you like. Optionally while drinking a wine at some romantic place. I can teach you how to feel free and connected without talking too much.

Update: But I'm learning TANGO ARGENTINO right now! Feel free and come with me to one of those Milongas in the evenings! I can teach you the basics that are nothing but walking together in unification to the music. (Update 2017: by now I became a fully fledged Teacher of Tango Argentino. Abrazo fuerte!)

What I Can Share with Hosts

My heart. My stories. My soul. Lessons from experience. The moment. The beauty of ...

Countries I’ve Visited

Argentina, Austria, Belgium, China, Croatia, Czech Republic, Denmark, Ecuador, England, Estonia, France, Hong Kong, Hungary, Ireland, Italy, Japan, Kenya, Lithuania, Luxembourg, Netherlands, Norway, Scotland, Serbia, Spain, Switzerland, Taiwan, Tanzania, United Kingdom, United States, Viet Nam

Countries I’ve Lived In

Denmark, Germany, Taiwan

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