CURRENT MISSION

To continually flow through the world as a creative forgetting of myself

ABOUT ME

I'm just some college dropout wanderer bumping into people who seem strangely familiar, somewhere down in this meshed up social seeding of the pit of my mind. Social not in any conspirational sense, other then perhaps that of the individuals dancing through the edges of our perception.

PHILOSOPHY

I don't think any certainty can be in any way obtained through rational processes for as long as we're basing reason on assumption, i.e. ever. This said, anybody's current state of mind is just as adequately assembled, experience driving people more than their decision making as perhaps a choice belief derived from that facet. I think that all people in some way feel justified with what they're currently doing, or perhaps I just don't understand the extent to which someone can be unaware of their intentions. Either way, respect of others beliefs seems to be a fairly straightforward specific instancing of such. Of course I'm not condoning anything I feel to be morally apprehensive merely because I'm limiting only myself to my morals. I'm as well saying that, to draw a rough parallel to De Beauvoir, nobody has the right to limit anybody else's personal freedom, even if they think it's in their own best interest. This is such a subjective fighting ground, however, that I will rarely intervene in interpersonal communication unless it seems to be developing in a way intimating severe bodily/psychological harm, etc.

Anything I think, to me, is more an echoing of my sky than any direction through life I'm leading myself on. I used here as the ego, defined as such not because I think the ego has any more grasp on the word than, say, my little toe, but to differentiate from the subconscious supposedly thriving somewhere not in I. So, everything that's me either being derived from the world directly or through my subconscious, which for as long as it remains an enigma, amounts to I believe the same thing. In short, the world as my creation of a state of affairs which for some reason I feel to be understandable, done by none other then my subconscious.

I happen to think that people are connected much more strongly than just through spoken communication, instead radiating their intent through subtle actions perceivable and not. Body language and movement obviously as a limit of these subtleties on some spectrum. I look at every thought expressed as a 0 torn apart into a mirrored world of meaning. The only meaning then I really see to be sought is through approaching completely spontaneous communication, with honesty as required for efficiency's sake.

A bit redundant, but I like to look at any sort of event in our field of vision, be it a person, the back of a head, a passing cloud, a trip over a brick, or the looking at a watch as a piece of this existence fractal. Given the size of the universe, I don't think there's much hope that this does any good, but it's certainly fun. Hard to hope to be able to label yourself as hopeless, in whatever sense.

On the topic of causality, I'd say we're all predestined to be ourselves as a 4 dimensional block, but that that doesn't stop you from doing anything imaginable. Not to say that I don't think that consciousness is possibly of a scope beyond the typical 4 or 10 dimensional reckonings, and in fact I like the fuzzy warm feeling that basic quantum physics seems to give regarding how we're all seemingly connected to each other through our matter at least.

I'd possibly consider myself spiritual, as you can perhaps by now either vehemently deny or quarantine me to, as I'm more trying to work on some sort of intuitive world pattern then engage in any sort of secular study. Secular however brings up thoughts of every atheist art that's ever blessed the ground, but such flimsy distinctions I find refreshing. More than anything I try to stop thinking and zero out of intending consequences in the world. I don't know of any situation I'd honestly not want to be in, so I try to completely draw away from the pragmatic implications of my actions in order to follow (myself? the world?). I at least am following something of myself in this attempt, but apparently noticing it at the same time, so. . .

I live my life because I haven't died yet. I don't think I have anything to give people that they won't absorb on their own time, through the world, in whatever way, so I just wander through them. I spend the time with my eyes closed before I sleep watching the backs of my eyelids fall apart, not waiting but diving into the land of dreams.

I left just about everything out, c'est la vie.

Warum ich bei Couchsurfing bin

HOW I PARTICIPATE IN COUCHSURFING

I haven't ever owned any sort of home or car, so my post-college life has been a pretty typical case of wandering. Prototypical I'd say, just to feel somehow avant guard, but I've never been so hot at being able to feel exceptionally secure in the validity of any words leaked. They speak for themselves (behind my back while they're at it!).

I was helping a new friend, Theresa, move from St. Louis to Monessen, Pennsylvania when I was introduced to couch surfing . org, at least in the official press my face into it form of introduction. As soon as I can establish a more solid base I'll be able to probably offer a home in St. Louis or Conway, Arkansas to the community, but till then I'll be using it as a way of meeting people throughout my travels.

COUCHSURFING EXPERIENCE

Theresa and I hosted/are hosting Maddy as of right now, which has been my only foray into the official world of surf.

I've had some amazing times staying with various friends scattered throughout the states, at the moment of which I remember especially a few weeks with a friend in St. Louis in his apartment, a month in a church in Albuquerque helping an old friend of mine take care of it, as our immediate travel plans had happened to overlap, and a few days in the apartment of a really nice older lady (30s or summat) in St. Louis who I'd met that day at some bus stop there.

I like people.

Interessen

Reading, Drawing, Writing (and twittering), Cooking, playing and listening to music, any way in which I can watch myself doodle the world of my moment into some sort of solid shape (not as in continuously relevant in similar ways, but rather as a persistent, though morphous, meaning catcher), Biking, playing soccer, Buddhism, Taoism, Existentialism, Art Museums and their occupants, meditation (zazen mainly, though everywhere in whatever way), Yoga, Life, People, the human mind, consciousness, subconsciousness, coincidences, the time, beautifully organically orchestrated unfoldings of assumptions and movement. Any list such as this is of course just as contingent upon right now's passing glance of sun as any other action; don't be afraid to assume from some body language or word or eye play that my interests extend past this rather skimpy list of anythings. Oh, and lucid dreams.

• arts
• writing
• festivals
• dancing
• cooking
• yoga
• meditation
• reading
• traveling
• socializing
• drawing
• music
• cycling
• surfing
• scuba diving
• buddhist
• atheism
• soccer
• physics

Musik, Filme und Bücher

Movies: How High, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, House of a Thousand Corpses, Garden State, Office Space, Dazed and Confused, Broken Flowers, A Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou, Revenge of the Nerds, Lost in Translation, The Big Lubowski, The Great Race, Jay and Silent Bob, Good Will Hunting, Shawn of the Dead, The Wiz, The Wizard of Oz, Superbad, I *heart* huckabees, Four Rooms, Pulp Fiction, From Dusk till Dawn, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Kill Bill, Short Bus, The Land of the Dead, Waking Life, A Scanner Darkly, The Nightmare Before Christmas, various Jim Carrey movies, Blazing Saddles, Robin Hood: Men in Tights, Willie Wonka and the Chocolate factory

Music:Afroman, The Arcade Fire, The Beatles, Bob Marley, The Bloodhound Gang, Bright Eyes, The Butthole Surfers, Camper Van Beethoven, The Clash, Creedle, Devendra Banhart, The Dresden Dolls, Echo and the Bunnymen, Eminem, E nomine, Explosions in the Sky, Flogging Molly, Gorillaz, Handsome Furs, Hellogoodbye, Horrorpops, Hot Water Music, Jimi Hendrix, the Killers, Killing Joke, Mad Caddies, Mad World-the original and the one covered by Gary Jules, Mercury Program, Modest Mouse, Mogwai, Neutral Milk Hotel, New Order, Ok Go, Outkast, Pavement, A Perfect Circle, The Pillows, Pink Floyd, The Pixies, Postal Service, PIL (Public Image Limited), Queen, Radiohead, Rage Against the Machine, Rammstein, REM, Steven Lynch, Satanic Surfers, The Shins, Simon and Garfunkel, The Smiths, Spoke, The Stranglers, Sublime, Tenacious D, Ugly Casanova, Water Drawings,
Bad Religion, Coldplay, The Cure, Death Cab for Cutie, The Decemberists, Dropkick Murphys, Raffi, The Sex Pistols, System of a Down, U2, The Village People, Panic! at the Disco, Gogol Bordello

Books:Jonathan Livingston Seagull, Anything by Bukowski, The Ethics of Ambiguity, The Meaning of Relativity, The Lord of the Rings Trilogy, The Hobbit, Holes, Artemis Fowl, The Hitchhiker's guide to the Galaxy, The Count of Monte Cristo, Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus, Gravity's Rainbow, V., Vineland, Mason and Dixon, Gertrude Stein's writing, Survivor, Invisible Monsters

Eine tolle Erfahrung, die ich gemacht habe

Coallessence festival, in Conway, Arkansas, was probably the most beautiful event of my life; a bunch of people in some woods with bonfire nights and art but really just

the people
so present
life as lucid

Lehren, lernen, teilen

I can teach you to cook! and live, but that's debatable. The cooking isn't :P. I'm semi-decent still in German if you want to pick up a conversational dabbling. I'd like to learn Japanese and Russian, as well as any sort of creative or useful skills that you happen to be endowed with.