CURRENT MISSION

Follow the man with horns, follow the woman down the desert path.

ABOUT ME

As a kid I had this feeling that something good, important, special was awaiting me in life. I can't say if everyone feels this but I'm sure I can't be alone. I was lost in my own imagination for a good part of the day. I had a good imagination and it kept me entertained for long periods.

As I got older and went through school, this feeling persisted. Though I was never particularly drawn towards any subjects, the arts, to me, were the only things in life that came close to expresing the wonder and awe of life and the universe. So I followed these, music in particular.

Later, I was rewarded with some earthly success in music. I performed, I composed for labels, I started a label, I assembled a tribe of great friends, together we built a space for all of us to perform and celebrate life in our bizarre chosen way. Things were good.

Then, responsibilities of life began and the good things could not continue. Life became more strenuous, more stressfull. Everything was called into question--most importantly, my feeling that I was destined for something exceptional. What was this feeling I had? Was it real? Was it some childhood illusion everyone feels but learns not to rely on it?

No longer satisfied by the same projects, I still desire the feelings of acomplishment I knew earlier. The same habits, the same goals, these don't speak as clearly as they once did. I'm not sure which feeling to follow--perservere or drop the old and choose a new mission? So I begin by simply changing my life through travel. I can't expect my questions to be answered, but I can open up to the adventure I always told myself I should have.

PHILOSOPHY

Don't die.

Why I’m on Couchsurfing

HOW I PARTICIPATE IN COUCHSURFING

Right now I'll be the one on the couch, but in the future I will extend my couch to others.

COUCHSURFING EXPERIENCE

The most recent experience was this week. I stayed at a friends NYC apt while he was away. House sitting. Nice to be there after moving across the river, I took a walk around the city early morning and tried to look at everything like a new visitor.

Last fall a great trouble finding friend stayed with me for a few days. We worked on music, caught up, and matched our next stages of scheming and adventure.

My girl lives in Thailand and I stayed with her for two months this year. I had visited her before and returning felt like I continued an adventure into a new life. Naturally, I did not want to leave. Since then I felt that my world here in NJ got pretty small and isolated. I should have caught it earlier but I had work to do. Now I can free a few things up and explore again.

Interests

The spirit world. Too many things have happened to me to ignore this and not feel endangered by the arrogance of denying it. Occult studies seem derailed by the attachment to insincere trend practitioners, so I never got involved in much of it--but there is something there and I know it.

The arts, music in particular has always held my primary interest. What part of us evolved to link our emotions to sound waves? How can a harmony create a feeling of longing? Why do repetitive rhythms induce trance sates? What makes music actually work?

Science and Religion: To me these are one thing. I've only now started exploring this further but I want to study hallucinatory religious experiences. Particularly, I want to engage them myself.

Deserts. My ancestry is half from the Mediterranean Sea, and half from the mountainous desert. This is the part I need to explore.

Building. Sometimes this means a house, sometimes it means a song. I love creating and seing the results of my work make other people happy. But when these results lead to no clear good life becomes frustrating.

• arts
• performing arts
• traveling
• music
• rock climbing
• genealogy
• religion
• science

Music, Movies, and Books

Bob Dylan, Niel Young, Johnny Cash, Travelling Willburys, U2, Radiohead, Bjork, Daft Punk, Oliver Lieb, Justice, Ed Banger, M.A.N.D.Y., Booka Shade, Tiefschwarz, Brian Eno, Roxy Music, Fever Ray, Alan Braxe, Ian Pooley,

Story of B, Ishmael, Master and Margherita, Dune, Narnia, The Little Prince, Rule of Four,

One Amazing Thing I’ve Done

Staring into the caldera of a live volcano, after climbing to the rim.

Teach, Learn, Share

One hears often that we do things that we love. I have found that in the beginning, we do them because we love what they do for us. After some time, one may find that our work for these things isn't resulting in the good things any longer. Squeezing the fruit can only yield so much nectar, and after this you must spend time growing fruit, rather than wringing out rinds.

Countries I’ve Visited

Cambodia, Indonesia, Thailand

Countries I’ve Lived In

France, Thailand, United States

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