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Why I’m on Couchsurfing

I'll be traveling through Europe this summer...

Interests

Photographer, Musician, Writer, Mixologist

• arts
• writing
• literature
• poetry
• photography
• dancing
• wine
• running
• walking
• drinking
• flying
• traveling
• painting
• music
• hunting
• law
• physics

Music, Movies, and Books

Tope 5 bands: Interpol, Twin Shadow, Perfect Circle, Death from Above 1979, the Faint
Top 5 Books: The Stranger, Tropic of Cancer, Unbearable Lightness of Being, Notes From Underground, Fight Club

Teach, Learn, Share

"One must behave as though ones existence were a work of art" -
Friedrich Nietzsche

"The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of death is to give it away" –Pablo Picasso

"The great tragedy of the average man is that he goes to his grave with his music still in him." - Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

“the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars.”― Jack Kerouac, On the Road

"Some lose all mind and become soul, insane.
Some lose all soul and become mind, intellectual.
Some lose both and become accepted." - Bukowski

An artist is always alone -- if he is an artist. No, what the artist needs is loneliness. -Henry Miller

"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don’t know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings." --Anaïs Nin

"And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music."
-Friedrich Nietzsche

"From which stars have we fallen to meet each other here?"
-Friedrich Nietzsche

"One ought to hold on to one's heart; for if one lets it go, one soon loses control of the head too."
-Friedrich Nietzsche

Genius is what a man invent's when he is looking for a way out -Jean Paul Satre

Disce Quasi Semper Victurus...Vive Quasi Cras Moriturus
-Unknown

"The sight of the huge world put mad ideas into me, as if I could wander away, wander forever, see strange and beautiful things, one after the other... wanderlust" -C.S. Lewis

"You know what luck is? Luck is believing you're lucky.... To hold front position in this rat-race you've got to believe you are lucky." - Tennessee Williams

I am a romantic person, a sentimental person thinks things will last, a romantic person hopes against hope that they don't. -F Scott Fitzgerald

In the subconscious, you fuck ugly people, never beautiful, the libido always desires something repulsive -Salvador Dali

The function of genius is to furnish cretins with ideas 20 years later -Louis Aragon

He who does not live religously or poetically is a fool -Kierkegard

Life is meaningless, unless one gives it meaning -Dostoevsky, on the absurdity of being

Sleep late, have fun get wild, drink whiskey and drive fast on empty streets with nothing in mind but falling in love and not getting arrested. -Hunter S. Thompson

I just go with my own taste. If I like something and it happens tobe against the law, then I might have a problem. - Hunter S. Thompson

I am pouring the juice of the grape down my gullet and I find wisdom in it, but my wisdom is not born of the grape, my intoxication owes nothing to wine -Henry Miller

"The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed." -Carl Jung

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside dreams, who looks inside awakens." -Carl Jung

I was sent here for a reason I have not been able to fathom...I have no money, no resources, no hopes, I am the happiest man alive -Henry Miller

Wild consumptive notes of hysteria, perversion, leprosy.I hear not a word because she is beautiful and I love her and now I am happy and willing to die -Henry Miller

The best way to get over a woman is turn her into literature. -Henry Miller

Like great work of art, deep feelings mean more than they are conscious of saying -Albert Camus

Ah, women. They make the highs higher and the lows more frequent.
- Friedrich Nietzche

"Faith is to believe what we do not see; and the reward of this faith is to see what we believe." -Saint Augustine

There is no sun without shadow, it is essential to know the night -Albert Camus

"Only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far they can go." — T.S. Eliot

"I have loved to the point of madness, that which is called madness, that which to me is the only sensible way to love." -Francoise Sagan

"The trouble with young writers is that they are all in their sixties." -W. Somerset Maugham

"There's also a metaphysical loneliness. We all feel it. The burden of living one's own life is experiencing sensations that no one else can share. You take a step in a house, you start moving around the house, no one else moves with you. You're walking by yourself." --David Ignatow

The brain appears to pocess a special area which we might call poetic memory and which records everything that charms or touches us, that makes our lives beautiful. -Milan Kundera

Love begins at the point when a woman enters her first word into our poetic memory. -Milan Kundera

"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain." -Jim Morrison

Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really. -Harvey Milk

The world evades us because it becomes itself again...it withdraws at a distance from us. Just as there are days when under the familar face of a woman, we see as a stranger her that we have loved months or years ago, prehaps we should come to desire what suddenly leaves us so alone...that denseness of the world is the absurd -Albert Camus

Lonely! What do you know of it? The loneliness of poets and impotent men. You prate of loneliness, but you don't realize that one isneveralone. That the same weight of future and past crushes us. Those we have killed are always with us. If it wasn't for them, all would be well. It's those we have loved, those who we did not love although they loved us; regrets, desires, bitterness and tenderness, whores and closed society of gods, the celestial gang! Always, always they are with us!Alone! If only in this loneliness, this ghoul-haunted wilderness of mine, I could enjoy real silence with only the rustling of a tree! Solitude? No, mine is full of gnashing of teeth, hideous with jarring sounds and voices. And lying beside any woman I caress, as night closes over us and my body is finally sated, when I find myself poised between life and death even then my solitude is fouled by the stale smell of pleasure from the woman still moaning at my side. -Albert Camus

The man who comes back through the Door in the Wall will never be quite the same as the man who went out. He will be wiser but less sure, happier but less self-satisfied, humbler in acknowledging his ignorance yet better equipped to understand the relationship of words to things, of systematic reasoning to the unfathomable mystery which it tries, forever vainly, to comprehend. -Aldous Huxley

If I find in myself desires that nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made from another world -CS Lewis

And suddenly I had an inkling on what it must feel like to be mad. -Aldous Huxley

If I know what love is, it is because of you- Hermann Hesse

When artists create pictures and thinkers search for laws and formulate thoughts, it is in order to salvage something from this great dance of death, to make something last longer than we do. -Hermann Hesse

"Poetry and painting are done in the same way you make love; it's an exchange of blood, a total embrace—without caution, without any thought of protecting yourself." Joan Miro

"There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed." Hemingway

You have to die a few times before you can really live." Charles Bukowski

"It's better to fail as an original than to succeed as an imitation" -Herman Melville

"If I were not a physicist, I would probably be a musician. I often think in music. I live my day dreams in music. I see my life in terms of music."-Albert Einstein

"If feelings fail you, vain will be your course and idle what you plan unless your art springs from the soul with elemental force" - Johann Wolfgang Goethe

"I would say any behavior that is not the status quo is interpreted as insanity, when, in fact, it might actually be enlightenment. Insanity is sorta in the eye of the beholder."
Chuck Palahniuk

"The only people who ever get anyplace interesting are the people who get lost." - Henry David Thoreau

"Vision without execution is hallucination" - Thomas Edison

"I like women who haven't lived with too many men. I don't expect virginity, but I simply prefer women who haven't been rubbed raw by experience. There is a quality in women who chose men sparingly:
it appears in their walk,
in their eyes,
in their laughter & in their gentle hearts. Women who have had too many men, seem to choose the next one out of revenge rather than with feeling. Some women are delicate things, some women are delicious and wondrous. If you want to piss on the sun, go ahead, but please leave them alone" - Charles Bukowski

“Courage has you say in a defiant spirit you can take everything from me, you could cut me deep, you could render me in shame but you will never ever stop me from loving those who mock me, from loving those that hate me, from loving those who don’t forgive me, from loving the cynics, from loving the darkness so much that I myself through my small acts of consistent unyielding love may bring on the light.” Cory Booker

"My life often seemed to me like a story that has no beginning and no end. I had the feeling that I was a historical fragment, an excerpt for which the preceding and succeeding text was missing. I could well imagine that I might have lived in former centuries and there encountered questions I was not yet able to answer; that I had been born again because I had not fulfilled the task given to me." — Carl Jung

"It's not about the technique, it's about the attitude" - Johnny Thunders

"Arrogance is thinking you are better then everyone else and telling them so; Confidence is knowing you are better then everyone else, and keeping your mouth shut." - A man among men

""To awaken quite alone in a strange town is one of the pleasantest sensations in the world." Dame Freya Stark

“We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets.” ― Marilyn Monroe

The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do. -Anonymous

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." Marilyn Monroe

Countries I’ve Visited

England, France, Germany, Italy, Mexico, Netherlands, Slovenia, Spain, Sweden

Countries I’ve Lived In

United States